World of Warcraft BFA Alpha Opinions

As most of you know I’m a huge Warcraft fan. Before I got into Mobas and FPS’s my first game ever was World of Warcraft. Throughout my time playing WoW I found many different ways to enjoy my time. Recently that time has been spent playing PVE with some of my closest friends. I want to make clear that I have participated in Mythic content very little compared to most. I dream to build my own group of positive individuals before we dive further into Mythic content but nonetheless it’s my goal. Overall I’d like to explain a few opinions, thoughts and concerns not only about the game but the new expansion ahead. Keep in mind I will only discuss about circumstances I’ve personally dealt with. Example: I don’t tank… therefore I won’t be discussing anything  tanking related.

 

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Healers

I personally enjoy being a support ( yea yea save me the sexist comments lol). I choose to play most of these roles because blizzard has done such a great job at making them fun, challenging to play and most of all… useful. However when it comes to Warcraft healing ( for me ) only becomes fun when the difficulty is high. Which is why I swapped to DPS in Warcraft and here’s why. Most people don’t trust healers. They always go with the “safe route” over packing groups with healers when they’re not needed therefore making the role boring as we attempt to out-heal one another. I feel this situation could be easily solved when you have a group you raid with consistently but not all of us have that privilege. I’m unsure of how to solve this “issue” per say. Our customs groups are in fact very custom. Hell you could run 4 tanks if you wanted. ( not ideal obviously ) Point is this isn’t like Final Fantasy where they limit the roles you can have. Most of the time when I run my groups I like to challenge healers to see what they’re able to do. It all depends on the gear, so please do not make an under geared healer attempt to heal in a difficult situation haha. Just trust your healers! Learn to look for not just gear score but stats to see if they’re capable. Give them a challenge! I’m sure they’ll love it.

Questing as a healer. Artifacts going away.

In Legion the easy accessible artifacts made it easy to have an off spec. With the Artifact changes coming up in the expansion I fear this will esp hit healers as they farm things like world quests ect. I personally HATE needing someone to do something. I’m also a completionist. So when something stops me from being able to do something… #triggered. It’s not that you CAN’T quest in a healing spec, it’s just so damn slowww. I’m falling asleep over here. Tanks even kill and survive better than healers while questing! Overall I’m sad to lose the artifact. I really enjoyed everything about it… minus the artifact power farm… yea that was annoying. The traits, the consistency of a great weapon and the transmogs all felt so good to have. I will miss it.

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Healing classes so far in Legion have been pretty equal on terms of balancing. There was a bit of a struggle at the beginning of Legion… but what expansion release is perfect?  As you can see from Warcraft logs above this is the current rankings of the healers. I used Heroic so we could essentially have more data. As far as balancing goes I feel they have been in a great place. Each class has a specific scenario they fit best in. I think it’s great! I’m not worried too much about the healers on terms of class changes. They did SO well in Legion with it I think the healers will overall be ok. I would like to hear any complaints or concerns of yours for discussion purposes 🙂 

 

BFA DPS- Balance Druid

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Oh man… I’m not gonna lie, a lot of my salt is with the Balance druid losing their artifact ability. While at Blizzcon I was able to play the new dungeons. I decided to go Boomkin considering it was my new main. I thought to myself during that dungeon “100% balance druids will get their artifact”.  Seemed logical? But for some reason they lost it. I know most Boomkin players will agree the moon was a great add in spell for the additional astral power. Not only that… but did you see the Full Moon fall? IT’S A BIG ASS MOON! I WANT MY BIG ASS MOON DAMNIT! All jokes aside the spec feels so blahhhh! I know it’s one spell but it essentially has 3 charges of one spell. It’s like they cut 3 instead of one. Making the rotation SO boring and slow. ( IMO ). Not many changes have come through for the balance druid. We lost a mobility spell “Displacer beast” and has been replaced on all specs. However nothing regarding the balance spec and the astral power system. This is my first expansion playing the balance druid so I did some research on the spec previous expansion to figure out how the overall rotation worked before hand. It seems every expansion the spec had been reworked regarding their resource.  After reading forums and different posts around the community I know I’m not alone in this concern. Without the moon the rotation is simply dumbed down and is slow. I’m so upset this could possibly be happening to my main. I’ve had a bad feeling since Blizzcon after testing the new dungeon without the moon. As of now on Alpha the balance druid have not been changed. I recently was able to try out the spec without the moon once more. Trying different talents to see if the overall feel of the rotation would get better, and honestly it’s just boring.

You have a basic 3 spell rotation.

Solar Wrath

Lunar Strike

Starsurge

(Single Target)

The basics are, you will cast solar wrath to build astral power to use your Starsurge. Once you use Starsurge you’ll proc two different procs, Solar Empowerment and Lunar Empowerment. Which increases the damage of your next Solar wrath and Lunar Strike by 75%. Now this proc can stack up to 3 times for each spell. Not sure if they plan to make changes at max level regarding the amount of astral power you have, but the case as of right now with the bit of testing I have done, you can only fill you astral power bar full to cast only 2 Starsurge’s at a time therefore giving you 2 stacks of the empowerment procs before you run out of astral power.

So now you add in the dots. Sunfire and Moonfire. Now obv you will cast these asap and manage their uptimes, doing your best to keep them at a 100% uptime. Each dot grants 3 astral power.
Live on Legion

Solar Wrath: 8 Atral Power – dealing

Lunar Strike: 12 Astral Power- dealing

Sunfire: 3 Astral Power

Moonfire: 3 Astral Power

New Moon: 10 Astral Power

Half Moon: 20 Astral Power

Full Moon: 40 Astral Power

Spenders

Starsurge Cost: 40 Astral Power

Starfall Cost: 60 Astral Power

 

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Solar Wrath: 10 Atral Power

Lunar Strike: 15 Astral Power

Sunfire: 3 Astral Power

Moonfire: 3 Astral Power

Spenders

Starsurge Cost: 40 Astral Power

Starfall Cost: 60 Astral Power

Now overall these 2 spenders are high in astral power cost. I felt the artifact ability gave this spec so much potential to spit out more spells and prioritize what you’re spending your astral power on. Simply taking it away with no changes just seems flawed and odd. Things could possibly change and I certainly hope they do for the sake of my main. A 3 button rotation feels lame, unsatisfying and extremely easy. Also I essentially feel this is a huge nerf to the class. As you can see the numbers above they have essentially cut 3 spells all that gave astral power (70 AP) and damage. While giving small buff of 3 astral power to Solar Wrath and Lunar Strike.  I did not include the damage number because we’re going to be going through a stat squish. Overall I’m covering the “feel” of the rotation itself.

What I would like to see changed.

Overall what’s on Legion feels fun and rewarding. I would love to see the moon spell come back. It’s what gave this class /spec it’s flavor. Without it… I feel naked. If this doesn’t happen I would like to hear the dev’s answer why they feel the moon was such an issue? And possibly come up with a solution to help the feeling of something “missing”.

With that said, what are your thoughts on this particular class / spec? I  would love to start a good conversation about this. If there’s one thing I LOVE about Blizzard, it’s that they listen to the community a lot of the time. To me the best way to get answers is to talk about it. I love my druid SO much and fell in love with this spec in Legion. I would hate to see this happen to my main 😦

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This video is great and goes WAY more in depth than I did in this blog. Would highly recommend watching it for a better understanding.

A small peak into my past- Lost friendships- Heart Ache

Realizing someone you care about, doesn’t care about you… stings right in the soul. I’ve dealt with this more than I would like to admit. Never really learning anything from my experiences other than it must be me. I’m the problem, I must not be likable… lovable.

I was browsing through YouTube as I always do. I came across a video of two friends who had somehow parted ways and decided to meet up once more and rekindle the friendship that once was. I think we can all relate to this in some way or another. We can’t just simply say “ I don’t care about this person anymore”. This video brought back memories and got me thinking of all the friendships or relationships I’ve had that ended badly. It made me wonder if I were to see that person today, what would I do? What would I say? Would I smile and say hi? Or would I panic and become anxious and walk away? With some people I felt I knew the answer. Others I guessed I would based it off of what the other person’s reaction would be.

Then it clicked. The encounters with these people are not just in my control. Sure I can do my part. I always try to be understand to others situations. I’ve been through some shit myself.. I get it. Life can just simply fucking suck sometimes. But I’ve learned that not everyone thinks the way I do. Not to say I’m better than anyone else. Maybe this is a curse within a blessing. I feel this trait has gotten me hurt more than it has helped me sadly. But I like being this way. I don’t like to judge others because I hate to be judged. I understand that the stress and chaos of life can often distract us and we end up hurting someone unintentionally in the process. This is just… life I guess. We all have our own way of dealing with it. You ultimately choose how you react to those people going through rough times. You can be understanding… or be selfish because they didn’t reach out to you one day when you could’ve used a friend. I strongly feel relating to someone’s heart ache or troubled experiences is a much better alternative. Which can also get me into trouble…

I have 3 sisters. I speak to my older sister almost daily but the other 2 are distant for the most part. But there’s one sister I grew up clung too. I was the second oldest. Always feeling protective of my sisters I would make a point at school or anywhere in public really.. that those were MY sisters. If anyone would pick on them or start some sort of drama ( you know high school) I would step in, no questions asked, ready to defend them. But there was one moment in my life where they needed my protection the most. A huge family upset that changed our lives. I felt as if I needed to be strong. Always head held high and ready to fight whatever was thrown our way. Then my sister suddenly… wasn’t my sister? She was angry. She was different? She looked at me differently. I would often make excuses for her in my own mind. Then I became angry with her. She ended up using me multiple times… Money, stealing or just simply causing unnecessary drama.  I’m no fool so once was enough to keep my guard up. But I lost trust in her. I would distance myself to spare myself stress and worry. Then one day… I found out she was in a coma… Asleep for days not knowing if she would wake. It put a hole in my stomach. My mind racing to the worst possible thing that could happen. She had just given birth to a baby boy just a week before. After she gave birth the baby was still in the hospital for a week after she was released. Upset and stressed over her son still in the hospital she grew a headache one day. She simply took medicine to get rid of it… and it turned on her. She started seizing and stopped breathing. The ambulance got there, got her breathing again but she was unconscious. She was rushed to a more advanced hospital. If any of you have ever lived in a small town you know they have basic Hospitals. But when a situation get complicated they fly you to the nearest qualified hospital. Also known as “life flight”. She was in ICU for 3 days. When she woke my mom called me through facebook so I could see her. I just remember crying uncontrollably. I was so happy she was ok. As I learned more about her recovery we began to worry about her mental health. My sister has a strong personality. She’s stubborn, blunt and often has a “badass” attitude. Me being who I am I tried to understand why she was the way she was. She had been through hell… My father gave her up at 15 years old. Mentally abused her daily calling her fat, useless and stupid. My father was a horrible man to all of my sisters and I but by far the worst to her. I remember the day she left… I remember everything I was feeling. The anger I had for my father, the ache in my heart for her. The undying pain of wondering if I would ever see her again. When you’re given up to foster care there’s no telling where you would go. I was 17 years old watching my sister drive off in the back of some stranger’s car. Her bags packed and her room empty. We dealt with our shitty childhood together. I felt strong with her. But once she was gone I just felt empty. Thankfully my aunt had heard what was happening to my sister. She had been registered as a foster family household for some time now and with the help of being apart of our family she was able to take my sister into her home. Years went by. My father finally in prison for being such a horrible person. My mother, sisters and I lived with my grandparents. My sister had been living with my aunt for some time now but she starting acting out. She ended up leaving my aunt’s home to live with our mother but the odd behavior continued. She would start arguments for no reason. She was always mad or sad. Clearly troubled but no one knew how to help her. We would suggest therapy which she tried but never continued. Then hard drugs and smoking joined the picture and I could no longer recognize my sister.

Now that we have a small back story, let’s go back to the last few days in the hospital.

I got a call from her on Facebook. She was bored and irritated but wanted a distraction she said. A nurse is sitting in her room and my sister says “This fucking bitch nurse won’t let me leave”… The past 3 days after waking up she seemed… Normal. Like this was the old her. But as soon as she seemed to get better the more angry and rude she got. She’s the type of person to get carried away with these types of actions. I’m unsure why. Maybe our childhood broke her? The drugs? I felt I tried so hard to help her pick up the pieces but no matter what I did it never seemed to work. I have an unconditional love for her. But the love made me want better for her… but she didn’t see a “better”. As her life slowly went down hill… and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Accepting it felt like I was failing as a sister. But surely me pressuring her pushed her away from me further and eventually we stopped talking. The classic blocking me from Facebook and never answering my texts. She grew further and further away. I always ask about her to anyone who has the chance to see how’s she’s doing. But I rarely reach out knowing I’ll just be ignored.

My point to this blog is dealing and accepting someone you loved or cared about chooses to discard you from their life won’t be easy to deal with. But it’s a choice that’s not up to you. How do you deal with yourself if someone portrays you as the villain? As the faulted one? This is probably the situation I struggle dealing with the most. Most times I find myself thinking “I was so nice”, “I did so much for this person” “I did nothing wrong”. Mostly jumping to defending myself instead of thinking how I could of handled it better. In most of these friendships I’ve chosen to feel sad and down and mostly a victim to unhappy people. Through years of experiencing these things I realized I have to accept what is and still stick to being me. I want to be understanding and loving because so many people deprive me of that. I have no desire to be nasty to another person for their flaws or mistakes. We all have different stories that make us… well us. So I end this blog with encouragement to reach out to that person you want to reconnect with. Be understanding and most of all be kind and learn to let go of grudges. Letting go gives you peace. 

Much love,

Blondie ❤

How I Learned to be Afraid of Men

Great read. Midway through I realized I can relate to a lot of these situations. I didn’t grow up with a 5 star father. He broke my trust and gave me the worst view on men. I tried to think it was “just him” but was later proven wrong. This post put what this woman and many others feels when you push yourself on someone. Nag for a phone number or simply being to handsy.

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It starts with the warnings. I’m told that it’s dangerous at night. Don’t walk alone at night, don’t be on the sketchy side of town at night, don’t wear revealing clothing at night. Don’t talk on your cell phone when you’re walking home from the bus stop in the dark. It’ll distract you from potential attackers. No, wait. Do talk on your cell phone. It’ll make potential attackers think you have a boyfriend.

After the warnings, it’s the stories. Women I love slip frightening, barely disguised hints into stories about their pasts. Stories that happen at night. I never know the details, but I know I’m not allowed to tell anyone.

When I’m nineteen, I move to Vancouver. It seems gigantic and bustling compared to my little home town. My dad buys me a small canister of dog spray, makes me promise to keep it with me in the…

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Final Fantasy XIV Review

Hello friends! Today I wanted to officially write my review on the game Final Fantasy XVI Online.

 

When it comes to online video games I would have to say my favorites all come down to MMO’s, survival and “some” shooters. While playing multiple MMO’s I have felt very biased because I’m a very die hard WoW player. I just recently took a break from WoW to try this game and man am I impressed. A lot of MMO’s lack the structure of World of Warcraft end game. Going into Final I knew it would be time consuming just like any other MMO, so first starting off choosing your class or in this case “job” became so versatile and intriguing! I still to this day want to play MORE. MORE JOBS MORE! I already had this issue when playing WoW. I always want to be able to help my friends with any role they may need me to play. I know I love to dps when playing alone, but with friends I have no issues jumping in the support role to be sure everyone has a place in our gaming group. With the recent WoW expansion “Legion” the new addition to artifact weapons and artifact power made having alts super exhausting. They’re much easier now to maintain but the past 6 months? It was a nightmare. I can’t express enough how much I love the fact every job you do, can be done so on one character. It just makes every alt junkies dreams come true! As for the game itself I can say I’m in love right now. But as any other game we have pros and cons. I’m gonna list mine out for you

 

  • Pro’s
  1. As I said before ,everything you do is done on one character. There’s no swapping to another toon with lower gold and items.  Of course you would have your main job as you would a “main character” but the option to easily swap and work on another job is always there. With this you no longer have the “faction” issue. This had only become an issue recently in WoW when I wanted to play a Night Elf druid because I felt the forms they got were so pretty. I simply just preferred the look of the Night Elf over a Tauren or Troll. However the faction issue made it so I couldn’t. I have played Horde most of my WoW days. I ran my own raiding guild therefor just swapping factions wasn’t so easy and the fact it would keep me from playing with any other friends on another faction. I have countless friends on Alliance while I raid and game with Horde friends. It kinda sucked. After playing a game that allows me to be whatever it is I want and game with ALL my friends… I don’t know if I could ever go back!
  2. In addition to every job being on the same character. Your main job will level at a normal pace but say you want to level a second? Third maybe? Cool cause you get at least double the xp than you did while leveling your main with story quests! Again this is an alt junkie’s dream come true! IT’S AMAZING!
  3. The gearing system. There was nothing more irritating than gearing from 850-880 in WoW. If you’re gearing a fire mage that needs massive amounts of crit? You better have RNG Jesus on your side because I couldn’t find upgrades for months. My 850’s and sometimes even 830’s would have more crit than an 880 piece. So far ( I’m still learning) every piece of gear that is up in item level will be a legit upgrade in stats, in Final Fantasy. The gearing is mostly based off of your job. So the stats are pretty easy to get down. This system makes it not only easier to manage but gives you a feeling of accomplishment… instead of disappointment while gearing up.
  4. Animations. Just wow. I can’t even say anything other than show you so I’ll link you a video here.  FINAL FANTASY XIV: Stormblood – Job Actions
  5. I love the inventory system. Seems like space might be an issue the more I progress through the game. However the Armory Chest system is awesome. It’s noob friendly and becomes way more organized for late game. It’s wonderful, I love it!
  6. Lore has a HUGE impact on these types of games. What I adore about Final, is that they revolve the leveling content around lore. The story they created… and it’s amazing. It can be overwhelming to read through everything sometimes. But overall I’m always wanting to continue on leveling not because of my level, but because I want to progress through the story and find out what happens next!
  • Con’s
  1. These past couple of weeks a new expansion was released called “Stormblood”. The content is great! But on launch as most games do there were issues. All understandable. These things happen. I personally didn’t appreciate how they handled it. Letting the issues just continue to happen for not only one day but 3 days. Many people have their own opinion but mine is simply I would rather the servers go down for a few hours, than not be able to log in or play any new content that I paid for. I felt very disconnected from the developers and I feel they should be more vocal with their fan case. I seen so many forum posts from players asking questions and reporting errors and bugs but nothing was said back to them to let anyone know they’er being heard. 
  2. Square Enix seems like a horrible company. So far I have read through about 20 post on their website requesting help for the 900002 error. They respond weeks after a post has been made. They ask the SAME questions over and over to multiple people who are receiving the same error and never come up with a solution. The mystery of the 900002 error continues! To break it down the 900002 error is a disconnection error. Which could be a number of things. But what it tells me… because so many people ( including myself) and no one has come up with a real solution that the solution needs to be made by Square Enix, but they clearly don’t care or some sort of solution would have been presented by now.
  3. Account set up was a B*tch! Once I got it done everything was fine. But why in the world are there so many websites for the same game? LOL?
  4. I really hate the DPS que times xD hahahaha!

 

With that said even with these “cons” I personally adore the game and will continue playing. I feel relaxed and genuinely enjoy the content these developers have created. Well done. If you would like to try of Final Fantasy XIV head over to their website finalfantasyxiv and download the free trial. You get 30 days free on the free trail. Obviously with some restrictions. You can’t add or invite other players, but other players can invite you. You can only go to level 35 and you are denied the access to a Grand Company keeping you from getting a Chocobo at level 20. But you have nothing to lose. It’s free to try out and you get the entire 30 days. Once you buy the also add an additional 30 days to your game time. They also have an amazing recruit a friend system. If you would like a recruit comment me your email and I will send you one 🙂

I hope you enjoyed this review. However this was one of my first written review and if you have any feedback regarding improvements please let me know! I hope you all have a wonderful day and Happy Gaming!

How to start loving yourself.

Over the years I have experienced the overwhelming pressure that’s placed on women about their appearance. For a long time I let it control me. Up until about a year ago I started to think differently. I stopped thinking about “what looks sexy on me” and started thinking “ what makes me comfortable”. Now I’m not talking about sweat pants and a baggy tee. No I mean what style of clothing am I comfortable in? What makes me feel good about me and helps me accept my natural form. With this in mind u want to share a few things I have tried this past year to help calm the anxiety of worrying about what others think of me or my appearance.

  1. Acceptance: When you look in the mirror. Start to look with acceptance. Weight loss isn’t magic and nor does it happen quickly. Healthy weight loss can take years of lifestyle changes. So it’s best to start loving your body for what it is. Once you care about the health of your body you can start making choices regarding your health  instead of what’s gonna make my butt look good in a bikini. For example. When I was 18 I valued the strength I had. I was the person people would go to, to lift heavy boxes and equipment. Every time I would lift anything heavy so many people were surprised by it. I valued this because I was very independent and I felt pride in not needing someone else to do those things for me. Over the years I noticed my strength had diminished. The day I noticed it was when I was rearranging my room and I couldn’t move my bed frame to the other side of the room. Being as stubborn as I am I had to place my back on the frame and my feet against the wall and push with my legs to move the bed frame. After I was in so much pain I realized I wanted that strength back. So when I work out, I lift weights or do exercises that help build muscle. I don’t care if my muscles start to form and show through my skin. I like feeling strong. Therefor I will do these exercises for ME and no one else.

  2. Try your best to stay positive: Being a positive Pam is never easy but believe it or not training your mind to overcome insecurities is through positive thinking. Once you’re okay with yourself you won’t care what others have to say. You will have good days and bad days. On those bad days try to fight those negative thoughts by doing something to help your body. Exercise releases endorphin’s that trigger positive thinking. With that in mind try your best that day to overcome those negative thoughts in anyway you can. Exercise, go home and look in the mirror and smile!

  3. Start educating yourself on nutrition: If you’re anything like me, growing up in America nutrition wasn’t taught to me. Sure my parents always told me to “finish my food” but they didn’t explain to be the importance of just simple water intake. To this day I struggle with dehydration because I never feel “thirsty” and often forget to drink water. Sometimes I would just chug an entire glass my force, but realized I felt bloated and icky after. I researched on better ways to “feel thirst” again. Most of these methods take time and I will let you know for sure if they work. I have tried taking a shot glass, filling it with water and taking shots of water up to 5 every morning, afternoon and night. This is supposed to help my body absorb the water better than just sitting in my stomach.

  4. Never choose starvation: A lot of people think that starving yourself is the easiest way to lose weight. They want to be slim so they sacrifice health for it. I would encourage you to never choose to starve yourself. I have done this in the past. After reading about what this does to your body overtime I stopped immediately. Love your body, take care of your body and don’t let your mind poison your body with the thoughts of becoming skinny. Choose to be strong. It’s never easy making lifestyle changes. Take it one step at a time and know all you have is time. You won’t lose all the weight you want just right before summer. So stop abusing your body to achieve a goal unreachable. Accept yourself in your beautiful skin and life will seem much happier.

A message for my Audience and Fan base.

I never planned to talk about this publicly. Mostly because a part of me hoped my best friend of 6 years would somehow mend things later on down the road. But this morning I woke to disturbing messages from multiple people who I considered my friends, fans, or audience. Some wanting to help, others just simply letting me know what she had said about me. I do value every single one of you. Anyone that even makes it a point to say hi or play a game… all of you. Every view, every like, every encouraging comment and every single donation has never EVER went on without a thank you or appreciation.

For some reason MelisaBaby is attempting to devalue my name. Why? Honestly I really don’t know. She has gone to not just fans but friends in real life and has decided to stir up drama about “comments” that I have said about certain people. I’m not perfect, and I never claimed to be. But neither is she. She’s just a bully behind a keyboard and at this point and there is nothing else to say, nothing else to do. But before you make the accusation that what she is saying is true or false. Come to me about it first. I can own up to my mistakes. She has won for the most part. She single handedly ruined friendships with people she could give 0 fucks about. All to take a stab at me behind the shadows. I tried to fix this and not let it go this far. She and I always agreed trust was a very thin line for the both of us. Secrets in our lives given to those we trust the most. In trusting it would never be broken. I will not give up that trust like she has done. But this shows HER character… not mine.

I have come to peace with what has been done. I have dealt with many friendships crumbling from silly drama many times over. I have come to the point now I know how to handle this. So please don’t worry about me. I’m just fine. I just ask if you have questions about the toxicity from MelisaBaby, that you come to me first before believing every word she says. Toxic people crave an audience. Don’t just sit in the audience. Speak up. Fight the show, don’t feed into it.

Women aren’t your enemy.

I used to always think being friends with other women was just impossible for me. A few memories from my childhood are embedded in my mind and I want to say it’s a reminder of how much I’ve grown and evolved over the years. I don’t ever remember being taught to think that other girls where my enemy or competition but I always remember feeling threatened. By the time I was done with high school I had a good group of friends I worked with. Most of my gal pals had boyfriends but there was one who was on and off with relationships. At the time I was very judgmental. I was raised with different types of religion but all and all religion only taught me that I couldn’t sleep with a man if I wasn’t married and I had to ignore my feelings for the same sex. Overall I judged my friend for her behavior. I heard others whispering “slut” and “whore” behind her back. I didn’t want that for her so I attempted to talk with her about how she was acting. As if what some group of people said mattered that much but that conversation turned into an argument. By the time the argument ended she had come to the conclusion I was jealous of her and all she had. She pointed out every single flaw on my body and compared it to her own. As she compared our bodies I went on to call her the names everyone else was calling her “SLUT!” “WHORE!”. This is only one story, but the point remains the same. When women feel threatened by other women, our first instincts is to punch a sore wound. These types of actions grow on top of our insecurities and most of the time these actions can stick on people for a long time. I’m not going to lie, that conversation still somewhat haunts me today. I have come a long way with how I treat my body but sometimes when I look in the mirror and look at the flaw she pointed out. It’s a reminder of a horrible fight with someone I thought of as a friend and in the end we just hurt each other.

You probably hear this babbled a lot but we often just wanted to be treated as equal as men and I don’t mean equal rights. (Sure that matters to but the point is.) When men sleep around they’re the “pimp” the “stud” the “ladies man”. When a woman does it they’re a “slut” a “whore” a “tramp”. This type of situation has grown even more problematic over the years. You have your own gender judging you for those actions while a man doing the same thing is just following his natural human instincts.

Now in the gaming community. Things are a bit different but also very similar. Say about 3 years ago if another woman showed up in a voice chat I would avoid and ignore her. Thinking to myself “she probably just another snobby chick”. Continue to avoid her and start to get irritated at her very presence. As years went on and I slowly started to see how my behavior seemed irrational. My attitude began to change and I made some really great friends along the way.

All in all the point to this blog is to inspire the women of the gaming community to start empowering each other. Instead having so much irrational hate toward one another. I have come across many women online that call me an “attention whore” for being a streamer. Or if I complain about harassment I get from men on voice chat, the only way it can be fixed is by not talking in voice chat at all. Saying the only solution to have these types of issues online is to act as if you don’t exist. To “pretend” to be male instead of female and if I accept any help at all in a video game I’m “just another fake gamer girl getting carried”. If we want men to stop saying these things, then we need to stop saying these things to each other. Empower each other. Defend each other… and most of all encourage each other! Sounds super cheesy I know. But maybe that’s just what we need 😉

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